and then...

So that's how things are. I'm glad that i've settle things down before it goes too far and deep. I do get shocked but then i try to think it clearly and find that it's not the end of my story. I believe one day i'll find the right one for me. I'm waiting :)

so...

It's been 6 days since then. I'm trying to settle down this thing, hope i can pull myself together and see things clear. I guess i get better (hope so) and i finally realize that this is not a big deal. Seems i get carried away before, but what i need to do now is enjoying that thing. Even he's not the one, i'm sure the time will come for me to find a fineman. Cheer up!

hopeless

Time to time this feeling start to annoyed me. I feel happy and sad in the same time. Happy to feel this way again but i'm affraid to loose him. I don't even get the sign from him. There's no way that he'll likes me. I don't think he even see me as a girl. We're match as a friend but not as a couple. I think i'll be alone till the rest of my life...

tanya

Saya merasa kesal dengan sifat saya yang satu ini,,,mudah terlena akan kebaikan orang lain. Harusnya menyukai seseorang itu menyenangkan tapi ini menyakitkan. Bosan sangat saya kali ini mengalami hal itu lagi.

Saya takut menilai salah akan semua sikapnya, takut terbuai dengan sikapnya, takut berharap akan dirinya. Kalau akhirnya hanya menyakitkan maka lebih baik tak perlu merasakan rasa ini dari awal. Tuhan,,,rasa ini sungguh menyiksa hamba. Kenapa hamba tak juga  mendapat kasih sayang itu dari dia juga orang-orang sebelumnya. Begitu hinakah hamba hingga tak ada yang pantas membagi rasa sayang itu untuk hamba?!
Kalau memang dia bukan orang yang tepat, mohon hilangkanlah rasa ini...